Wow...I haven't wrote on here in a quick minute. Just been gettin fucked up as hell all the time cuz Jeff aint around. I really fuckin miss that kid so fuckin much, and I really wanna have sex. But my boyfriend gotta be all the way in Florida....Man, tomorrow will b a month since he left, and it was really hard. It is still really hard. I can't wait till April when I can go and see him, that is, if I have the money. I can't find a fuckin job, and there is no way in hell my parents will gimme like 300$ to go see my boyfriend, they actually aint that happy about me even going in the first place. But w/e I am goin no matter what...Yea well I got this packed bowl waiting for me, so I'm out. Peace

*muah*  Stefanee

Jeff is gone now...It is 10x harder then I ever thought it would be. Its just so fuckin frustrating for me, I have known this kid for how long? And I have always had feeling for him, I just never said ne thing cuz he was SO fucking hott and I was dating his best friend at that time...But seriously, I am finally with him and this shit gotta happen to me. When I thought I had everything I could ever want and need it gets snatched right from under me and I get to fall straight on my ass. I guess thats what I get for falling in love to fast. That will teach me I guess. I just would have prefered that I would have never had to learn that tho....Who knows, a long distance relationship could work, but to be honest....To face the facts, I am dating Jeff Corona....And I would hope he would respect me and not cheat on me because we were such good friends b4. I wish I could b the one to change him, and I am so fuckin scared. But who knows, if he really does love me then he won't lie or cheat, and if he don't love me then he should have never said he did, right? Its just....yinz wouldn't understand, when ever he tells me he loves me and all that good stuff....I dunno, he makes me feel so good about myself and so happy... I just miss that so much, and I would give anything for that back.